Jashn

All in all, Jashn is not a cult movie like Luck By Chance. I could not feel the impressive debut of Adhyayan Suman. More than Adhyayan, Shahana was impressive for her really bold and urban contemporary outlook and solid performance, she is perfect for the role. It looks that She may fall into the cluster where Konkona Sen Sharma falls too, and I like these actors very very much. Adhyayan neither looked handsome enough, cute enough, musculine enough, nor he has acted his butts off, so its an average debut. While, Shahana, first of all, has a veery much appropriate costume and attitude for the role that she is playing and by the way her role is Jara-Hatke, we have not seen such roles often in the mainline movies. I dont know about average movie goer, but in my openion, she has acted the role her butts off unlike Adhyayan, or may be my favorable openion is because I may be impressed by the character [credit to writer], but in any case, I found it to be the paisa-vasool stuff. She does not looks fully bitchy, not a business minded, not a housewife, not a struggler, not a prostetute, rather that character is a perfect cocktail of all of these, and a very interesting one. The movie is over and I have very distinct impression of Shahana's unique character, bold costume and the acting or if I may... [not sure but] method acting. All in all, awsome Shahana Goswami and for that its watchable once. Movie * 1 star, Shahana Goswami ***** 5 stars.

Ghalib Express

So much fantasizing, Ghalib and Me!!! The association, that says about your interests and your intrinsic experiences feelings and behaviour. Well, its rubbish to associate myselft at this point to Ghalib, but there is nothing as fantastic as it is. Sometimes some of Ghalibs sher pops up in my mind when I am idle, here is the one that does the most of the times.

tere waday per jiye hum tu ye jaan jooth jana...

ke khushi se mar na jatay,agar aitebaar hota

The power of the lines, understood in right sense and spirit, gives immense idea about how correct Ghalib was. Each of the lines, so much sharp, direct, solid, simple, clear and real to the maximum extent. I never read Meer or Iqbal, but people say that they were the masters, but definately Ghalib has brought immense amount of swagger to this DILCHASP competition/comparison and its very much debatable as to who is expressionwise more powerful, Ghabli, Iqbal or Meer? And pity to the current generation, it has been a very long period since we have seen such Greats, and there is nobody who can wear their shoes, really, pity on current experts of Urdu and Persian language. And deep down sometimes I feel that all these three greats have filled the void, there is nothing left to fill, nobody can invent new expressions and new emotions because emotions are limited, expression are limited, they have done it, just like creating a constitution that enforces laws which regards personal rights and they are limited, so the constitution is almost statutary, haha, [very poor example I have to come up with something more relevant and lucid, will update in some time.] But all in all, once you have read what they have to say, its difficult to get their stuff off your mind, of course, it does not affect you adversely, it just opens the doors where you can peek into the exceptionaly romantic world, full of emotions, full of selflessness, full of everything that is delicate and beautiful and the real thing is that you dont need to take drugs to open those Doors [reference THE DOORS]. They are next to God, for they show us some of the dimentions that we are totally unaware of, and after understanding what they have to say, it looks just like what we learned was very much essential.

It has been two years I have been here in America and I always subconsciously know that its not my native land, its foreign land. With this in in mind, its bit easy to withstand a culture shock, for example when we few friends go out for a late evening walk, I never expect to walk on the green fields surrounded by bushes and having trees all the way, its obvious that we used to have a walk around campus which consists of big buildings passages, bridges road and parking lots, so bigger that we could never think of going far into the trees. Today, I went to a small grassfield, made for playing football but its not a professionally prepared ground, its not maintained. There we Indian and Srilankan people played cricket today. It was a late evening in the summer. I had familier feeling because the field was covered with non-uniformly distributed mixture of green and brown grass, there was clearly visible soil with cracks at few places, just like a cricket pitch. There was thick bush on one side of the ground and the other side was densely covered with trees. When I was near to the bushes, I heard a lot of noise, and I had a very very familier feeling because the playground that I remember since childhood had thick bushes and dense trees. In a moment I tried to visualize the place without the road passing by and the electric pole and football nets, I just wanted to know whether it is perfectly like the old playground that was my home, and to my surprise it was, and what I discovered was a noise beyond the bushes and the supposedly abundant miracles of nature, the resillient, wild and wonderfull, Life.

I just had a talk with one of my really old friends. Becoming nostalgic to really old friends is such a priviledge. After all we are humans.

NVIDIA PhysX

I had a look at Nvidia PhysX technology and demo. It is really awsome, because now we dont have canned images in place of real time virtual reality, this is a milestone and I can imagine, with these technological shifts it would be easy to actually direct an animated movie like Shrek or Monster's Inc, just you need a good game and Nvidia or any descrete card having PhysX like ability and screen capture with litthe higher fps rates (30), I dont see that is too far given that Moore's law holds very much true even after few decades and Intel has come up with some solutions to keep it going till eternity (2050, I believe). Well, PhysiX looks really awsome, I am wishing that I get myself power packed i7 with SLI graphics in very recent future.

Home

I finished watching Home today and it was really mesmerizing and eye opening documentary. Though I have a little dumb point to make which liberates at least me from the burden of questions related to pollution and disruption in ecological balance.

Trees are there since millions of years and its deemed to be robust enough to the changes in our ecological system. I don't think at all that Trees are going to deplete as easily as imagined by scientists. There must be some natural selection (zzz... darvin) that would reinforce the resillience of trees under new ecological order. And also we should believe that there is sublte balance always in the ecological system of earth, otherwise we would have experienced some dangerous consequencies right here right now, we need to wait and let the nature find the balance under new parameters and I strongly believe that nature assumes certain ecological balance but its very robust too, the millions of years are testimony to this and nature is winner always, it will win again. One solution may be using our research and technology to find certain species to conquer each of the problems and help nature find equilibrium earlier than expected if not nature takes a little time to adjust to new ecological configuration. As for example Archeobacteria can function in extreme cold and extreme hot conditions, algae can release oxygen, I am sure we can create new species which can absorb co2 or absorb methane or any substance, this reasearch is our answer to these problems. Though we can not wait to see the nature's reaction and newly found balance under new parameters, we should be certain about some inherent robustness that has created a heaven on earth, and one can imagine a gigantic shifts in ecological balance since Trees' inception that is millions of years and Trees are still there, so no question about trees robustness and survival chances under new ecological conditions exeption being manual deforestation. Lets confess, that there are 200 more years, we have oil and we can pollute the ecosystem to the maximum extent possible, but still it is not enough to defy the robustness of nature and balance in ecosystem and so its not fragile, albeit it is flexible and there can be changes that we could not imagine but ecosystem breakdown is not imminent as it is exaggerated.

The documentary really gave an immense idea and perspective about earth, humans and ecological system and their relation to our and earth's future. Must watch for everybody, for knowing how wonderfull the earth is and what kind of legacy it has inherited to us Humans, nature has selected us to think for the 4 billion years of legacy and we need to be wise now, at least the researchers need to find out the right ransom amount of thinking the earth and its legacy demands. In fact, Life occured, is worth of a miracle on earth where there are similar billions of earth's in galaxy, we need to bless the earth with our mind power as earth's nature has blessed us miraculously.

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